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9.10.2004.13:13

Man, I hadn't realized how long it'd been since I've posted! In fact it's quite likely that nobody will be reading this post any time soon... d'ah well.

I need someone to rant to, and since my roommates are at work and my relationship is teetering on the brink of complete annihilation, I figured I'd pour my thoughts into my crusty old webpage.

The things currently absorbing 100% of my thoughts are (in no particular order):
The acquisition of money
My significant other
Work
My future.

It would seem at first glance that this is no different from the norm, for me or most people... it's just that now the stress on each of these things is magnified 10x over usual, and it's all at the same time.

1) Money. Over the last 2 months I've had to pay/still owe more than $800 in combined car upkeep and court costs for a couple tickets I received for minor traffic infractions. That strain on an already tight budget make for a stressed Steve-O.

2) My 'significant other' and I are in extreme danger of becoming just 'others'. In fact, we may or may not have already broken up. I don't really feel like elaborating on this right now.

3) I'm in line for a Supervisor promotion which supposedly will take place within the next couple months. As disillusioned as I am with retail right now I don't plan on making this a career, but as you see from #1 up there, the extra $5 an hour in pay make this goal a worthy one, almost a necessary one seeing as I'm already being paid the max for my current position.

4) With my relationship in peril, my reason for being over here in TN is also on the chopping block. I've met some great people since I've been here, but I also have great friends back home in Colorado, along with family that loves me. Throw in the fact that I would make more (higher pay rates) and pay less (no rent, utilities etc.) in Colorado, and you've got a very convincing argument. This would allow me to pay off my half-a-decade-old credit card debt in 1 year instead of 4 or 5 years.

BUT

What's it all for? What I'm I going to be? I came over here partially because I wanted to be a musician, which has been completely lost in the veritable cornucopia of issues in my life. The issue is that there are a handful of things in life that I love to do, but as far as I can see they all either; Won't make me any money; involve too much luck to make money in; require too much time to get good enough to make money with (while I'm still working full time to pay off my debt). Then there's one thing that will make me money, especially if I continue going to school for it... but that thing does not come even close to making my list of things I love. It may--in fact--be in the top ten things I loathe. I've already got a path laid out for that one thing here in TN, and transferring that path to CO might be a shaky thing.

So there you have it. My first post in a long, long time. I was going to rant about the NHL and NHLPA's Collective Bargaining Agreement and how Hockey is going to die even faster than before in the U.S. thanks to the NHLPA... but after writing all the previous stuff I'm too preoccupied to bother.

Anyway, thanks for reading this. Posting may be like having a one-sided conversation, but it still helps some. Thanks again for coming to the site.

Steve-O

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